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5:19am September 5, 2014

Update

Sorry I have been on hiatus for so long, I’m not dead——I have just been clearing up heavy shit the past two years and I’m FINALLY making some progress as far as my mental state goes (psychology is one of the most important sciences I believe, more and more each day) and I had about 15 years of repressed memories. I have to be my own shrink due to poorness (still no job calls, 3 years looking now), but honestly I don’t see too many ways that could go wrong since I know myself better than anyone. Down to the genetic configuration, it takes real effort but more people should do this) I know my predisposition to mental illnesses on both sides of my family and what the signs are—-but point being, I’m not running down that Hellish trail of despair and perceived helplessness anymore. Good friends have helped more than they know; they are priceless. So far there has been a total of 4 vitamin and mineral deficiencies identified: Folic Acid, Iron, Magnesium, and zinc. It had a lot to do with my fatigue, eight and overall mental state—-I am now 5.9” and 140lbs now, since 2011 I have lost a total of 60 lbs and I haven’t felt this good or strong since before puberty. It is such a relief that at first, it made me cry relief. Hey, you go without energy, strength have chronic aches and chronic depression for 20 years and you haven’t even gotten your first wrinkles yet. It is extremely relieving to be recovering from my own personal traumas, and I’m helping everyone around me repair too—so  that feels good. I have recovered my piano playing skills too and MORE in the past year as well—I hadn’t played in around ten years but I’m SO glad I started again. Great mental exercise. Piano is MY gym. The clouds are finally clearing. I still have nasty episodes now and again, but I have more mental and physical strength now and can stay in the ring longer. So that’s where I’ve been. I hope you have all been well.

11:53pm September 2, 2014

Oh dear HORUS…Now THIS is a beautiful rendition of the very first song in Final Fantasy 7. That choir. -shiversob-

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10:29pm August 31, 2014

Going to be combining songs and changing keys around tonight after I get back from town—-THIS song here is getting combined with the right hand part from FF9’s “You’re not alone”. The Flashbulb does sync well with Nobuo Uematsu’s Final Fantasy compos (and “Emerson Lake and Palmer” by default; Uematsu is a raging ELP fan), AND GUESS WHAT? Dell computer records better audio, so sound for you…maybe. If I continue to improve my focus. I flop a LOT I realize. Working on that and progressing.

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8:55pm August 31, 2014

ATTENTION: If you are secretly 90 years old and carry a semi-closeted love for Weather Channel local on the 8’s, this whippersnapper right here does most of the non-porno sounding, eerie, chilly and GOOD music for them. He’s done like everything. Nice fella too, appreciative of his fans and really deserves re-cog. Take his Spotify for a whirl my fellow tight-skinned prune-juice compatriots! Now, where’s my Metamucil…? (the best part is you think that I’m joking, but I’m not.)

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8:23pm November 26, 2013

trapdoormaker:

BOO!!

hesharp:

I AM SERIOUSLY FUCKING IMPRESSED WITH THIS THOUGH Apparently, this is work for an animated Leroux Phantom, according to Reddit link that lead me to this majesty? LOOK AT THIS FINE ASS WORK WOW
1:53am November 26, 2013

ALL MY FAVORITE CHARACTERS IN EVERYTHING DIE WHY IS THAT

There’s Alys Brangwin from Phantasy Star IV, there’s Vivi from FF9, there’s Erik from Phantom of the Opera, there’s The Wolf from Ringing Bell, there’s Hojo from FF7, there’s The Beast from Beauty and the Beast (although he gets better), there’s Quasimodo from the novel of Hunchback of Notre Dame, there’s an ASSLOAD more, and NOW THERE’S RICHARD HARROW FROM BOARDWALK EMPIRE.

I SWEAR TO GOD, I GET REALLY NERVOUS FOR A REASON WHEN I DECIDE I LIKE A CHARACTER, BECAUSE MORE OFTEN THAN NOT, THEY DIE. 

Beware if you like any characters that I like in the future—-BECAUSE THEY ARE LIKELY TO DIE. 

My approval seems to be deadly. e__e 

11:05am November 13, 2013

Note: Previous post was a joke post. But you must do a little thinking in order to “get” it.

Enjoy and happy thinking! ;D 

10:32am November 13, 2013
42 OKAY FUCK YOU 42 I CANNOT EVEN BEGIN TO COMPREHEND THIS WHERE THE FUCK DO YOU GET OFF I AM SO OFFENDED I THINK I MIGHT BARF FUCK I CANT BREATHE THIS PISSES ME OFF SO BADLY GO DIE IN A FUCKING FIRE YOU PIECE OF SHIT SERIOUSLY HOW THE HELL DO YOU EVEN EXIST FUCK EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS PICTURE

42 OKAY FUCK YOU 42 I CANNOT EVEN BEGIN TO COMPREHEND THIS WHERE THE FUCK DO YOU GET OFF I AM SO OFFENDED I THINK I MIGHT BARF FUCK I CANT BREATHE THIS PISSES ME OFF SO BADLY GO DIE IN A FUCKING FIRE YOU PIECE OF SHIT SERIOUSLY HOW THE HELL DO YOU EVEN EXIST FUCK EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS PICTURE

12:50am October 29, 2013

HAHAHAHA…This years “Treehouse of Horror” had FIVE different Phantoms in the opening sequence, singing what sounds like Gregorian Chant… Hawk-masked phantom is pointing at Lisa for interrupting the phantoms jam session with her saxophone. They even had what ALMOST looks like the original Erik from the cover of Leroux Phantom on the far right! :D 

6:27am October 5, 2013
Just a little something I mocked up tonight while trying to learn how to use Corel Painter 12. Stilll trying to figure out how to do variable pen lines WITHOUT them looking pixellated…ARGH…But eh, if I CAN figure it out, I think this is going to turn into a pretty bad ass image. \m/

Just a little something I mocked up tonight while trying to learn how to use Corel Painter 12. Stilll trying to figure out how to do variable pen lines WITHOUT them looking pixellated…ARGH…But eh, if I CAN figure it out, I think this is going to turn into a pretty bad ass image. \m/

1:03pm September 9, 2013
  • -Just Now-
  • Me: -reads news headline "U.S is briefing on Syria".
  • Me: (To dad) Ugh....they're putting their underwear on Syria AGAIN...?
  • Dad: Huh??? Underwear??
  • Me: Briefing...?
  • Dad: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
  • Me: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
  • Dad: Barbara BOXER?! ASKLJHSLFKAJH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
  • Me: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! -rolls eyes back in head, drops jaw, looks to sky-
  • ---A sampling of the corny jokes that are made around here constantly.
9:17pm September 8, 2013

SHE LOOKS EXACTLY LIKE I PICTURED HER

AND THEIR HOUSE

AND THEIR YARD

I blame the hive mind.

No more do we have to imagine her like this

-shudders-

9:03pm September 8, 2013

THAT LAST SCENE

ON TONIGHT’S BOARDWALK EMPIRE

I KNEW IT

I KNEW IT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN

YES


2:07am August 31, 2013
Erik Profile Study by ~kilderokOh yeah…I kinda drew this recently and forgot to post it here. Ahh well, it’s just a shitty traditional medium profile study of Erik anyways. Nothing special.See, if you were my friend on Facebook however, you would have already seen this a LONG assed time ago. :D One more reason to friend me on Facebook!

Erik Profile Study by ~kilderok

Oh yeah…I kinda drew this recently and forgot to post it here. Ahh well, it’s just a shitty traditional medium profile study of Erik anyways. Nothing special.

See, if you were my friend on Facebook however, you would have already seen this a LONG assed time ago. :D One more reason to friend me on Facebook!

2:04am August 31, 2013

So…who wants to be friends over on facebook..?

That’s pretty much the only place I’m regularly active anymore. Access to all horrible pictures of me and my pets! Full access to all of my horrible art and strange random thoughts I have through out the day! You can’t beat this shit!

My Facebook

Go ahead, friend me. You know you want to.

I do this because I miss my Tumblr friends, but just can’t seem to be active enough on Tumblr anymore.